The bad: There's something about finding old roommates and friends after 20 years that gives you a slap of reality square between the eyes.
The ugly: Reality.
The reality that is my life (or possible midlife crisis):
Reality #1 - It has been 21 years since I graduated from high school. I'm basically going to pretend I'm talking about someone else. Oh my holy rollers. I seriously have to look away from #1.
Reality #2 - My friends have beautiful children who look just like them. That's probably the hardest to swallow. At this point in my life I should have a darling family too...but I've got nada.
Reality #3 - My friends own homes. Dang, strike 3.
Reality #4 - My friends own boats. Hmmm. Maybe I could live on a houseboat - then I'd knock two off at once.
Reality #5 - My friends look fit and amazing. (yes it makes me want to eat Doritos)
Reality #6 - My friends have real careers. Still not sure where my MA in Human Development is supposed to get me. So far?? Diddly squat.
So there you go. I'm sure if I sat here and stripped down my life to the bare bones I'd find something else...but 6 will do. They're a big 6.
Yuck. Reality is a good swift kick in the shorts. It just brings up all the grossness of what I haven't accomplished in my life. What do I have to show for myself in all my 38 years?! I feel like I am so far behind.
On the bright side, it is motivating in its own twisted, slap-in-the-face kind of way.
I've got my notepad out. Time to set some goals.
A dose of positive reality:
- Can't change #1 BUT I can look so good (#5) that #1 won't even matter!
- If I can get a handle on #6, I might actually be able to have #3.
- And if I have #3, I really don't need #4, although it would be fun.
- And...we've been saving up to do invitro again so hopefully #2 will come true.
5 comments:
Reality #1: Yes, it has been a long time since high school. Aren't you glad you're not there anymore? Truly, who wants to re-live their teenage years? Sad thing is, some people still ACT like they're in high school...
Reality #2: You will have another opportunity to do invitro. Having gone through it once before, hopefully this time will be easier and will produce the desired results! You WILL be involved in a child's life, one way or another!!
Reality #3: It is getting more challenging to own a home in this day and age. Homes come complete with all the other "wonderful" things such as maintenance, property taxes, and yes, debt!
Reality #4: Is a boat really necessary? Our friends have boats, but they are also seriously deep in doodoo debt! You have to have a BIG truck to pull that sucker and a place to park it! Rent a boat for a day and have fun!
Reality #5: If they look fit and amazing, it's probably because a) it's in their genes b) they have money & TIME for a gym, neglecting their kids, and c) they use Photoshop...it's not reality!
Reality #6: What is YOUR definition of a career? Do you measure it against other people's definition or your own? You have developed some amazing talents with the past few jobs you have had. Your degree in this day and age do not necessarily mean you have a career in that degree. Brad's degree is in Physics with a Japanese minor. He's a programmer now. Go figure!
Shannon, you are one smart gal who has her priorities in order! You've got some great goals and the amazing love and support of Rod. Don't give up! :-)
yeah i kinda like facebook to snoop... but i hate that ppl from my past can see what I'M up to... hahaha
Come home snoopy...we need you here in Seattle. OK, I do. Your blogs make me laugh....
It is hard when the plans we make for ourselves don't seem to pan out as expected, especially when we hit those big milestones.
I have NO doubt that you are an inspiration to many. You are so creative and funny, and I know you have a positive affect on others around you.
After reading #6 I was curious Where a MA in human development leads.....so here is a list I found...Positions include but are not limited to the following: case management, community outreach, community social services, cooperative extensions service, crisis or hot-line services, child and eldercare programs, domestic shelters, family life education, probation and parole services, residential care, school/family liaison, support or self help groups, and youth services.
I too feel very much like I'm in a Midlife crisis....things are not going the way I would like them too. My degree is not worth the time or money I put into it thanks to an industry that feels I need an BFA requireing me to go back to school. And I'm gaining the wrong kind of wieght....
in the end I just keep moving forward making course corrections the best I can....I'm sure that if you make the changes you want that are in your control you'll find lots of happyness....I know you all ready found a lot of happyness about 4 years ago
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